Passionate

I've been asking God help. I've been asking God why? And today I feel I've receive from Him.

Thankyou Father!

Lord God I know I need passion and drive to run on! And it comes from You, first and foremost.

I feel you are teaching me to worship fully and PASSIONATELY in all things I do. Not just the ones I like, (atm) but all.

I feel you are showing me to: invest; give more; pursue harder; and desire more the things you have put before me. I want to.
But I think I may have been amputating my own investment. Cutting short the quality and time I've spent doing them because somehow I've believed the lie that I can't enjoy them? Or won't enjoy them? Or perhaps it's just been the pervading theme or accepted belief that most people don't and instead I hear them whingeing and complaining and I've let it rub off on me. I've agreed with them.
But you have called me to this and it is such a priveledge! SOOO amazing! I want what you want for me. I do!

So I hear you saying, go harder, invest more, ... But when does the desire come?? And I feel so often dry and dead to these things. And other things crowd in.

Then you show me a fire... Like your love! All consuming :) I like fire! Lol, I think that's why you showed me it this way :)

You want me to build a fire in all these areas! And let it burn!!!

I see desire in the heart like fire. It needs fuel to burn, it needs heat and oxygen. Once it has these it will grow and radiate and spread ;)

At first it's some work... But soon the desire like heat comes!!! And radiates!

Then You bring to mind this song again! "All in" Thank you Jesus! And thanks Lifehouse for being providentially used by God.

Reflecting now upon my past time spent studying, it's as if I've put only a little... Tiny bit of wood down. Wet, mind you... I didn't give it time to dry out even.
I've kept on waking away from it... Not given it enough time to catch alight.
And then peeing on it?!!? (Whingeing/having that bad attitude)

I want to be more passionate.

I am sorry Father for not giving You my best in my studies. I want what you have called me to and what you have placed right before me. Help me to walk as a true worshipper, consecrating my time in studies as an offering to You!

Amen.